給遊蕩倦了的你

今天  不參雜哲理  只有單純的  宣洩
                                                                               
好冷  只有下午出現了那麼一陣該死的悶熱
                                                                               
因為堅持一個堅持  撒下了漫天大謊
                                                                               
報應很快的  銳利的溫柔  短短一句無心  傷人於無形  體無完膚
                                                                               
啞口無言  偽裝在心底瓦解
                                                                               
好想在那瞬間說服自己是對的  自己說的都是真的
                                                                               
但  事實不容許辯駁  自己不容許被自己欺騙
                                                                               
好想好想很滿足的向你點頭  微笑地說  沒錯  的確是這樣
                                                                               
但  好難  難到再回想時  就是克制不了的心酸
                                                                               
真的不該撒謊的  不該以為自己可以若無其事的把幻想移成現實
                                                                               
可是為了截斷後路  下下之策還是派上用場  無奈
                                                                               
也許對你沒有任何影響  但我逃不過自我懲罰

許久不曾在總圖前看星星了  呵  也許是個詛咒吧
                                                                               
總是沒好事發生  怎麼走  怎麼錯
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                 2002.11.3 11:15pm.